Today was a good day for my dry eyes, non-artificial tears are a great lubricant.

Today was a bad day for my heart, whether it’s sensitive or not.

Today was a weird day for my brain, as it tries to understand realities.

There have been many things that I should’ve written about, but that I have not had the time for… (I will catch up) But today, I couldn’t help but post, perhaps a bit impulsively. Sometimes the rational brain loses control over the heart’s magic.

It seems that humans have this drive for conflict and violence. We can’t be stopped, even though our brains have evolved to such massive volumes that they can barely fit through their birth canals anymore. “Lethal violence during warfare is so common in human societies as to suggest that it is an adaptive instinct of our own species,” Wilson writes in Genesis, The Deep Origin of Societies. But he also writes that in order for social groups like humans to have successfully evolved into what we are today, there must have been an obligate altruism trait that was genetically imprinted and naturally selected for.

Either way, what I understand is how deeply beautiful, caring and loving of a species we are. Yet at the same time, we are also so immensely dark, selfish and sadistic. There is no ‘other’ in the human conflict. It is but a conflict within our stupid selves.

Today, I could not help but think of my loved ones, however far I sometimes feel from them. I could not help but think of my beloved grandparents, who grew up under occupation, who embodied resilience, who led by example, who cherished and loved, and who look upon me day and night, among the shining stars. We are like an ocean – destructive yet peaceful, furious and calm. My heart goes back to the home where it all started, cradled by the sea. May we all be able to go back to our roots, so fragile, yet so strong. For peace on Earth…